A lost child

I was looking right at him. But he just wasn’t there. I could touch him. But he just wasn’t there. I could tell him that everything is going to be all right. But he just wasn’t there. He could yell at me. But he just wasn’t there. I’m here. I just need you back!

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Be consistent

It doesn’t matter what you haven’t accomplished yet. It doesn’t matter how old you are. It doesn’t even matter how much free time you have. Consistency will lead to progress. I’m writing this during breaks between sets, while working out. I’ve built a business, run a couple of literary magazines, got married, and had kids….

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North Star’s Glow

A beacon of hope in the lonely night, I know it’s there. I can’t see it in under the depressing fog of city lights. Even the country gives no glimmer under its dark clouds of anxiety. When I do see it, catching a glimpse, I barely notice. I only remember the days when I don’t…

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Dear David

You don’t matter anymore, and maybe you never should have. I’m envious of people who grew up without a father, without a reason to explain away a black eye. I don’t want you in my life. I know you made the decision to get rid of me long before I ever even thought about making…

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The Weed Dilemma

I need to quit weed. I’ve posted this idea before, but I constantly ignore the reason why I enjoy cannabis. It helps me relax. As a child, my father taught me to be fearful, anxious, and constantly stressed out. I’m no longer fearful, but the stress and anxiety are fairly hardwired still. Marijuana kills the…

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Struggle

Sometimes we fight more only to fight more. Trying to speak, trying to yell, when we can barely breathe. Ready to express the pain that we feel to the core. Unable to understand why they think they are better from the time they teethe. Greed is how they live. Guilt is something they never feel….

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Replacement Insanity

May 10, 2022 – 9:15am Shots rings out from my AR-15, as people in the crowd fall to the ground. I don’t want to kill these people, but if we’re going to keep my country safe, if we’re going to keep the right government in power, what else can I do? April 9, 2022 –…

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The Flowers of Need

Fog enters my lungs, Enters my mind, Leaves my mouth and fills the air around me. Fog stays in my brain, Stays in my cells, Slowing my days. Fog takes away the sadness, Takes away the anxiety, Kills the stress. Fuck fog. I need clarity.

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The Death of Sanity

I’m sitting on the ledge of a 20 story building, while people below watch me, and a man in a suit tries to talk to me. “My name is Theo. I’m here to chat with you, OK?” “Sure,” I say. “What’s your name?” “Sam.” “Well, it’s nice to meet you Sam. I won’t tell you…

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